i haven't blogged in awhile, but i truly believe this is worth it. well it all started on monday in third period. we're doing titration labs in chemistry all week. my team consists of me, justin, ayana, and gagan. ayana was gone because of a club congress meeting, so it just left me, justin, and gagan. it was our first titration, and mistakes were expected, and they did happen. we were taking a tad too long that we had to go into passing period for fourth period. as we were like two minutes into it after class, we get a visit from ms. meyer, the chemistry teacher. she approached our table and said, ' so, you guys, what did you learn today?' confused and sturcken i replied with,' what're you talking about? ' and then she finally said, ' you shouldn't leave half of the work for gagan to do, it's a team effort. ' in my mind i was saying, i set up half of these damn titrations and cleaned half of the materials, i at least deserve 35% of the credit. sharing 10% and dividing it by two, thats like saying i only did 5%. she also was babbling on about how she should both give justin and i F's for the rest of the week because we hardly participated. i was still in shock, you could see my jaw drop onto the floor. i was truly offended. she said, ediben, when you're good, you're really good. but i think justin is dragging you down; and if i have to take gagan out, then you two can work by yourselves and get F's. in my mind i was pissed, because i know i did more than that 5% that she was giving me credit for, and second of all, if you took that hussie out, then are you saying that im incapable of doing the lab, was she calling me stupid? i didn't really want to argue with her, i wanted gagan to back me up and defend us because she knows that i did at fucking least 35% of the lab. she just sat there, as if she was on a damn pedastal, with the constant thought of ' yeah, damn right. i did 90% ' or thats just how it was coming off. things all happened just so quick that i didn't even know what to say, im a late reactor. so the following day, tuesday, i have one of her good friends in my first period, and we socialize occasionaly. we have that relationship where i can just make fun of the chick and say mean things about the other, whether it be a physical comment or something else, and she can do the same, and in the end we just laugh. so this was the first time serious business was discussed between the both of us. i told her what happened, and she said that she wanted to talk to gagan about it. they don't see each other until after lunch, luckily i'd get to have the first blow to her in third. so it finally arrived, it was third period. we were still doing those damn titrations, and everyone was urging me to finally confront her. i did it towards the end of the lab. if you know me, when i confront someone im really harsh and i don't really give a fuck. i was really delicate this time and ultra tranquil. although, i told myself, if she gives you a little sass, just unleash, forreal. i calmly just approached her, and said ' hey, gagan i have something to ask you. ' she was just sitting there with her lab goggles, watching me. i said, ' yeah, you remember when ms. meyer swang by yesterday...' and she just kept babbling on and crap and i didn't even get to finish. so i just interrupted her and said, ' yeah you know that i set up half of those damn titrations and cleaned half of the materials, why didn't you stick up for us? i found it pretty damn offensive when you just sat there, with that smirk on your face, which expressed the thoughts of " yeah i did 90% " and i don't think it was very sincere, and.....' and then cassandra finished my sentence and said ' considerate. ' and i said ' yeah considerate. ' and i pretty much just said ' yeah it was fucked up how i just sat there and i was waiting for you to defend me. ' and then she said , ' sorry, well i was gonna-' and i interrupted and said , ' but you fucking didn't.' and then it just went on, until i got my damn point across. i became victorious. it was funny because lots of people were watching, i also think ms. meyer was listening, but i really didn't give a damn. it wasn't fair for being accused for falserynessism. so it was funny, because justin doesn't really give a damn if gagan hears that he talks shit about her. he just said, ' YEAH! friends got each other's backs. thanks for sticking up for me!' and i was just like you're a fucking dumbass, i'm not trying to be mean to her, i just want her to know that she got more credit than she deserved. so fourth period was like my resting time, and then lunch. i always see cherie when lunch comes. so i came by, and told her about it again. and she said she'd still wanna talk to gagan. this morning was told that she threw water bottles at cherie and her friends, and questioned why she was on my side. in my mind i was like imma take this hussie down again. cherie also told me just more crap, like her relationship with some dude named ranjeet from independence, is like a phonebased relationship, and all this other crap. and cherie wasn't feeling too good because of previous altercations that happened the day before. so cherie didn't want me to talk to gagan about it, but i felt as if i had to. because gagan is all fucking talk, and cherie is my home girl. besides, i think i intimidate gagan alot, so i can get the point across faster to her than cherie did. cherie said that its fine that i do it, but just not too much. i just wanted to build gagan up, and have cherie deliver the final blow. cherie said that she'd banish gagan from the group and just expel her from her life and what so ever. so third period came again. and the first thing she asked me was,' ediben are you still mad about yesterday?' i told her, ' i was never mad, i was just frustrated because i felt that i needed to be justified for what really went down.' she said alright. and then i brang cherie up moments later. and then i told her what was said, just to agitate her. i left out lots of parts, but then she kept irritating me again. and then the second confrontation occured. i was at first gonna just let her slide, but she just kept pushing me and pushing me. so i told her, ' gagan, can i be real with you?' she had that same blank stare again. and i said ' gagan.......' and there was a long akward pause, and i took a deep breath. i told her, ' gagan, i don't like you, the only reason i can tolerate you is because you're in my damn lab group. i think you're hella fucking annoying. ' and she said, ' how are you gonna judge me because of my personality? ' she also said a bunch of bullcrap. i said ,' well cherie is my friend so im going to have to take her side, and how are you gonna call her your friend when you're throwing crap at her, real friends would've comforted her.' and she said, ' she never told me anything about yesterday and why she was sad, ' and i said , ' how could she tell you, you just keep bitching....' and then i brang up how damn annoying she was and said , ' there is a fine line that is drawn, and you cross it with your mouth and crap. ' and she said, ' thats just how i am, im just like that.' and i said, ' well how come you have a boyfriend and you hella fucking flirt with luka?' and she said, ' i don't flirt with him, thats just my personality. luka and i have a good friend flirting relationship.' and then i said, ' oh fucking bullshit. how about i go over there and ask him if you guys have a ' good friend flirting relationship?' she said' ...... whatever.' she knew she couldn't take back what she said. and i was damn serious. so i traveled across the room, and asked luka, i even used quotation fingers on what gagan said, so i asked, ' hey luka. do you and gagan have a good friend flirtation relationship?' and he answered quickly and sharply, ' no.' so i went back and said, ' gagan, he said no, and everyone heard. so i don't know what the hell you were seeing.' and i just left, there wasn't anything else she could say to redefine the way i felt. it was pretty damn obvious that she's always flirting with him, her remarks to him always like ' LUKA, you have a hole in your pocket,' with that dreamy annoying girl tone. and the hole in his pocket happened to be in his ass pocket, and yeah she was looking. or when she said, ' oh luka, i wish i had your jacket, it looks so warm.' i was like double you, tee, eff man. or that one time, he was absent, and she was talking about him, and everyone was like, gagan, don't you have a boyfriend, and she said, ' yeah, but he doesn't have to know. ' but, after its all said and done im glad i did it. i just felt good that i stuck up for cherie, my lab group, and especially myself. as i left ms. meyers room with ayana and theresa we were all laughing and i snapped my fingers. it was pretty damn funny.
