what i don't support - hype beast.

i was reading the school year book, and i was laughing pretty hard. i cannot remember what the kid's name was but it was hilarious. it was a question of what shoes you'd wear normally. a freshmen said he'd wear NIKE SB's so he can "stand out." i don't know who this kid is, you can say im talking shit, but im not. i just find it so hysterical that he thinks its different. especially if you're living in the bay, its more common than asians with slit eyes. anyways, getting off this tangent. well i wasn't born in the bay area so im not adapted to the style yet. although what i've noticed is that everyone looks the same. its not bad, but i hate how much money they invest into what they wear and call themselves unique. especially when then claim it is their personal preference, but its just another copy of someone else. the reason im frustrated isn't because they all look the same or copy styles, its how greedy they are with money. parents work pretty dang hard to keep a roof over our heads, keep us fed, and accompany us with their presence. i've had a conversation with someone, and they said that they don't care if they lived in a card board box, with no food or anything. she said she'll find a way to get food, as long as she has her family close by, nothing else could stop her. which really made me smile, and makes me wanna share. the most expensive things, or the things that 'everyone' has, these stupid trends, can be limited. it drives me NUTS! please, don't over do the 'rep the bay crap either, it gets annoying. more topics to come.

park.

well today was pretty much normal when waking up i guess you could say. uherm well i watched an episode of made, that show is pretty cool. it was an anime freak chick, that wanted to be superbingly girly. she was the head of her japanese club, where everyone called her sensei. she flew from oregon to california, to go with her made coach to the beach. she met two guys and one guy asked, "do you play and computer games?" she said, "yes, world of warcraft." i was like... wow, shes so dope, which server HAHA. anyways, that was a good episode. when my little brother arrived he was wearing my clothes, i got mad, but after we biked 4 blocks down to the park. 2 bikes 1 skateboard. uherm we pretty much talked about jadine, and how two faced she was being. i finally uploaded some photos and songs to my phone. edison broke the brakes on my dad's new bike. luckily i fixed it. i was in the basketball courts, comparing the back brakes of my dad's bike, to my brother's bike. i pulled a couple of strings, and it works, TADA. we went back home the long way, its pretty fun feeling the breeze especially going down hill. well we left cousin miko home for a bit and edijay and i went on a little joyride ourselves. but the little boy fell. my dad came running out, you know filipinos. well he was okay, so we went around the block a different way, just to try new things. so then edijay went back, i was like "where are you going?" he says, " just go ahead with out me." i was like nah... im gonna wait. so i took a u-turn toward to where he was located, and then he came back and blasted off. he kept looking back at me, that there was a car in front of him at stopped for him, and he wasn't even at a stop sign. thank you mister, edijay you're dumb. so then i told him to go left, he went right, so it was a short ride. i told him he doesn't know what hes doing, he almost got hit. and then he said why am i making stuff up for? that none of it even happened. okay, first im not stupid. don't cause drama, or make a mountain out of a mole kid. what is my motive to making him mad? its for his safety. the whole thing was blown out of proportion. i remember that he had my shirt on, so then i wanted to gather all my shoes, and then sort them in my shelves under my bed. sort out of momentos in my closet. sort my clothes, pants, and everything. so because he made me mad, i actually got alot of cleaning and organizing done, thanks but no thanks also.

naughty kids.

for hazel, and other interested people. well today was just another chill day. miko decided to IM thee cousin jadine casually and just say 'yo.' although, jadine went all dramatic and said a bunch of crap. look at the conversation first.

Conversation:
[AWAY] rawr. looks who's talking gerk.
MIKOtheFREEKO: youre a wumbo woooozer
xjadinexwordx: [AWAY] rawr. looks who's talking gerk.
xjadinexwordx: okay?
MIKOtheFREEKO: whats a gerk, ediben asked
xjadinexwordx: this is her friendd...
xjadinexwordx: jadinee's friend.. -_-
MIKOtheFREEKO: why are you jadines aim.
xjadinexwordx: because i want to
MIKOtheFREEKO: do you not have your own?
xjadinexwordx: i do
xjadinexwordx: yeah
xjadinexwordx: but i want to go on jadine's.
xjadinexwordx: actually im not her friend anymore.
xjadinexwordx: jadine is ghey
MIKOtheFREEKO: what the fuck
xjadinexwordx: my name is lenzi.
xjadinexwordx: and you are?
xjadinexwordx: i bet you,
xjadinexwordx: you are jadine's cool cousins jadine talks about
MIKOtheFREEKO: youre
MIKOtheFREEKO: GAY
xjadinexwordx: and i bet you again...
MIKOtheFREEKO: DEEENA
MIKOtheFREEKO: BOOOO
xjadinexwordx: that jadine told u that i called her a slut whore and a bitch
MIKOtheFREEKO: LAAHHHVS U
xjadinexwordx: >:D
xjadinexwordx: wth?
MIKOtheFREEKO: Jadine, youre stupid
MIKOtheFREEKO: very stupid
MIKOtheFREEKO: im gonna tell your parents what you told me
xjadinexwordx: ?
MIKOtheFREEKO: i just saved it on my sidekick
xjadinexwordx: i'm not jadine..-_-
MIKOtheFREEKO: we know its you were not dumb...
xjadinexwordx: omg.
xjadinexwordx: wow.
MIKOtheFREEKO: im calling your parents right now.
xjadinexwordx: IT"S NOT JADINE!!!
xjadinexwordx: you dont know my parent's phone number.
xjadinexwordx: you dont even know who i am!
MIKOtheFREEKO: jadine... we arent dumb little 5th graders going onto the sixth
xjadinexwordx: im going invisible.
xjadinexwordx: xjadinexwordx signed off at 7:14 pm.
MIKOtheFREEKO: i can still talk to you when youre invisible, dumb ass.
xjadinexwordx: durrr i know
xjadinexwordx: im not stupid like jadine.
MIKOtheFREEKO: so whats the point of going invisible
xjadinexwordx: idk
xjadinexwordx: because i want to!
MIKOtheFREEKO: hella stupid
MIKOtheFREEKO: i swear
xjadinexwordx: jeez got a problem?
xjadinexwordx: oooh im scared!
MIKOtheFREEKO: good
MIKOtheFREEKO: so
xjadinexwordx: well before jadine's dumbass friends go on snitching on me.. im getting off.
xjadinexwordx: cya you loozers.
MIKOtheFREEKO: oh
MIKOtheFREEKO: youre scared?

after we decided that this little girly is a liar. we can tell because OMG, shes so childish. she says first, that i am jadine's friend, and then that she isn't jadine's friend. besides, why would you change what you say, friend or foe huh? most importantly, why would you give your information to someone who isn't your friend. if you already have have a screen name, why use hers? and how could she know the things only we talked to her about, why would she tell someone that ISN'T her friend. its pretty hilarious how she'd know everything, and IM NOT JADINE, oh thats just crap. it was funny how she kept saying how she was going invisible, we can still talk to her its pointless. oh little fifth graders got it bad.

what we did?

so we decided to *67 her house phone. too bad it said it doesn't except blocked numbers. so we decided to call her favorite cousin "Hazel," who wanted to know what was happening. so hazel called jadine, and then the conversation went something like this, oh we also told hazel to tell jadine that she might have to take care of Nemo for a day, we thought she'd jump down her one stair for this one.:

Hazel: Oh, Jadine.
Jadine: Hi Ate Hazel!
E/J/M: You're on trouble little Girl!
Jadine: .....
E/J/M: We caught the little Gay-Deen!
Jadine: Who is this?
E/J/M: Don't play dumb, we're not stupid, we've got everything on the Sidekick.
Jadine: I wasn't even on the computer.
E/J/M: Well then how do you know what we're talking about?
Jadine: .....

and thats how she knew she was caught. we told Hazel thanks, we danced around for 5 seconds. it was fun to catch the kid red handed. we're not gonna snitch on her, we just want her to stop and be honest. what goes on in little kid's heads these days, SERIOUSLY!

Hazel:

Jul 29, 2008 12:23 PM

So like, after you guys called me to say thanks or whatever, Jadine called me back. &When I asked her what happened &she started hella crying &saying how she didn't know what you guys were talking about. She was like, "OMG, I hate them. They're the worst cousins ever. That's why I cut myself blahblahblah" I just finished reading your blog. That IS hella stupid.
source: maureen hazel.

Us:

well my question is why do you lie? yeah maybe us cousins are mean, but its just to protect you and shit you know? for everything you've done little girl, we've never snitched on you. we just told you that it best not happen again or else we will snitch. yet you repeatedly keep doing the same things and lying. according to hazel. okay, how are we the worst? because we catch your mistakes? hate us, thats fine, but find a legit reason. don't say you cut yourself because of your friends, and then later blame it on us, don't flip the script honey.

Hazel:

Jul 31, 2008 8:07 PM

So yeah, I talked to her earlier. But I didn't really get much. All I know is that she doesn't cut herself anymore. 'Cause I don't see anything. I warned her though that if she starts again then I'll just tell Auntie Mildred. &she knows I actually mean it. But yeah, she denied everything about the online thing &said that her other friends messaged her with stuff like that. So idk about the online thing. Then after I talked to her, she was like, "Ugh, I hate them. I wanna messaged Ben" So expect one from her. Something about how you guys make fun of her &all that. Idk, she's weird.

Jadine:

Jul 31, 2008 6:03 PM
YOU ARE THE WORST COUSIN IN THE WORLD! everything i say, everything i do, you and miko always laugh at me and kuya. even the thing about nemo, my friend said to let go of it, and now, you still make fun of me and YOUR not letting go of it! I may not be the perfect cousin, or the perfect kind of cousin you were expecting, but idc anymore. All i wished for my whole life, ever since you first said something mean to me, I HAVE BEEN PRAYING TO THE LORD THAT YOU WOULD STOP BOTHERING ME! So now, at every party, me and kuya are going to stay away from you guys. because we are tired of being in our hurt box. our hurt box with words that eat us alive. and i bet you are going to laugh at the top of your lungs when you read this, but im just telling you, that you have hurt me and kuya ever since we met you guys. and laughed at us. and made us have so much pain in our lives. you can tell your story about that day my "friend" had with miko on aim, tell the whole world that my "friend" said that. you can tell everyONE! and you really want to know the reason i cut myself, the reason i was emo?! it's because of you guys. with every word you said to us, all the harsh things, it's all bottled up inside my heart. and now im sick of it. im sick of you guys laughing about who i am. because all i'm trying to do is be me. and knowing that ppl hate me, just because i try to be normal hurts. it makes me believe that a nobody. and that's why i cut my self. because of all the words you said to me.
usually my friend would say that "ooh! my cousins are so mean! they didn't bring me to mcdonalds! Im mad at them now!" but they dont know anything you told me.
so if you can just please let my dream come true i'd appreciate it. and to believe that my parents would let you go camping with us, i dont want to hear you talking to me. and if you do, the only word i want to hear you say is "sorry"
and im not "deena" anymore. you can call me that, but dont you expect that imma respond to it. because of that name. a whole lot happened in my life. i made this this long, because my "cousin" im sick of you guys. i cant belive i've tolerated this. okay? so just back off.


PLEASE STOP LAUGHING AT ME.
PLEASE STOP BOTHERING ME
PLEASE STOP TALKING TO ME.


i've tried everything to forget about you guys.
and yet, i actually thought that you cared about me when you took me on the bike around bike.

but i knew you were just that cousin, that hurt my life.



From D:<, jadine.

Reply:

Aug 2, 2008 12:07 AM

first of all jadine, you should know, as someone apart of my family, of course i care about you. we all care about you. tell me what I did wrong? even if i 'did' make fun of you, don't blame everything on me. we don't even make fun of you, we just make little jokes. you never told us to stop, or never said anything, you just lied and blamed it on other people. how are we mean, after you said 'lenzi' did it, we said we'd beat him up for you. you're just involving people for no reason. what does aj have to do with this, this is you. aj hasn't ever said anything to us, you either. i don't expect anyone to be perfect, especially myself, because no one in this world is perfect. if you wanted things, you'd have to go half way for us to know, tell us, and then we'd go the other half. im not laughing at the top of my lungs, im hurt that you'd say these things about us. why are you blaming me? you were talking to MIKO on aim and not me. we can HELLA tell it was you jadine, how are you gonna know what we were talking about when i said ' the information is on the sidekick, ' and then you said ' i wasn't even on the computer ' and we never said anything about a computer? why would you cry if you didn't even know what we were talking about? and why is your friend gonna be on your screen name when they have their own? why would you give your information to someone who isn't your friend? how is this ' friend ' gonna know things you only told us? we're not dumb jadine, i've experienced all the things in highschool before, im not stupid. even if we 'did' make fun of you [ which we didn't ] does that mean you have to cut yourself? if someone makes jokes about you you're gonna hurt yourself? for what? you're so mean, you're just a little girl, and yes, what if your parents what us to go camping with you? so what? that has nothing to do with you, why are you bringing it up? why are you making me seem like a bad person, even if we did make fun of you, WHY BLAME ME? the last thing i would say to you is sorry, i never did anything to you jadine. the only reason you're like this is because you GOT CAUGHT, and you KNOW IT. you always try and blame thing on other people. you say you don't like the name DEENA, but you always use it. you always just say, ' my friends did this, my friends did that ' well if they did change your profile stuff, then you can always change it back. even if you didn't like the name, then why tell your friends? even if you didn't like the name DEENA then why are you embracing it? am i mean? when we found out that you did all these bad things, we never told you parents? we always just let it slide, and we said, just don't let it happen again, but you're TOO MUCH. we're telling your parents this time. you said i can tell ANYONE that you cut yourself, so im gonna tell your parents. jadine you know that you're a liar, you KNOW IT. don't blame things you did on other people.

Jadine:

Aug 4, 2008 4:03 PM

well fin you arent mean but when you showed hazel your blogger, and that picture of me and nemo that made me so mad. i've been being bottled up for too long, it was spilling out like crazy. i just wish that life can be easier for me. because at school, it's hard even to stay alive with bullies everywhere, and so i depend on my family to comfort me all the time. and since you guys just laugh at me it kinda makes me guilty and made even me laugh about how stupid i was. On "my" youtube, my friend just made it, and she didnt even give me my account stuff. she just makes and pleases. which really makes me mad. And second, she's barely my friend now because she went around telling everyone that i was a bad president. and with those kinda ppl in my life it tears me apart. as usually i end up crying. it just makes me frustrated, and yet i can't believe all this stuff ends up to me. is it because i ran for president? I'm just tired of this all and i just want to have an enjoyable time as a child. :/ -Jadine...

Reply:

Aug 4, 2008 11:07 PM

first of all, don't blame anything on me. you first blame your friend, then you blame me, then you say its not my fault once i said im gonna tell your parents. you're just trying to get away with things again, and im not gonna let it happen. you've said many harsh things to me. don't use me as a scapegoat ( excuse ) just to get away with the things you've done. how are you gonna say those mean and hurtful things to me, and expect me to forgive you for something you accuse me of doing, which i didn't do. you expect me to pretty much get on my knees, and beg for forgiveness, well its the other way around honey. yeah, if you're sad then be sad, but don't pin anything down on us, for we didn't do ANYTHING to you. if your friend is being mean, tell them, don't blame us, or cut yourself. if you're bottled up, then tell your parents or someone to help you. don't find someone to blame things on, and get people that aren't involved with your drama involved. jadine, i've let you slide dozens of times, especially WITH your parents. you're too much, we're telling your parents, and you can't get away with it this time.

Jadine:

Aug 6, 2008 9:25 AM
well im really not going to stop you. but i did blame my friend first, then i blamed you-ish. i did tell someone. but sometimes, there is no one. which makes me feel alone in this world. if i told mommy and daddy, then they'd just go telling your parents. and i didn't want that to happen.

i hope you really do forgive me.
because i just want to have a fun time at camping.
-jadine.

DUH NA NA NA BATMAN.

well it wasn't as boring as a thought. well technically at 2:30am i finished watching a pretty corny movie, strange wilderness. its decent, its got some funny moments. it is pretty hard to make someone laugh, you've seen it all right? after finishing the movie, i finished the third volume of a comic book at 5. i think i mentioned it earlier in a previous post. everyone seems to say that reading a book is boring. i mean yeah, at school it is, because all the crap they give us is educational. someone actually brang me to the library, and it was pretty freaking awesome possum. give it a shot, im really interested in murder and mystery things now. it mostly all depends on what you read. i think i can honestly say that i DO read for pleasure. i remember i would have a flash light, and turn off the lights in my closet just to get into the mood. anways, it was cool. i need to get the next books though. well i woke up near 11am. my dad then told me that i would be watching a movie. so i just went with thee flow. we watched the dark night, 2pm. it was a pretty good movie. i'd rate it a 7/10, and trust me, imthe hardest critic you'll find. after that, we ventured to the bathroom stalls, and just took pictures of my brothers and cousin talking to each other in the urinals =] after that we got picked up. near 7pm we headed over to cassey's house to kick it before she leaves for seattle in the mornin' tomorrow. played apples to apples, mafia, and cry wolf. i just got off of the phone with sharry and lovely. talked to kristine and eda too, im ORIGINALLY supposed to go to school tomorrow, 10:30am, to be exact, and get 3 hours of community service. i don't think its gonna happen. sharry told me i can just get the papers, and have her mom fill them out for me, considering that she works in a hospital, and i can just say i "volunteered" working at the hospital. if it works, awesome possum. if it doesn't im still alive. so i guess tomorrow i shall go to school, pick up some papers, then hit the mall, drop off applications, head over to the dentist, then oakridge. pretty boring...

haha just something 'she' said.

[01:40] y: it cant be!

[01:40] y: youre always cute

friday movie, sleep over, and 3 new books.

hmm well right after my latest post, which is the one before this, i guess i saw my uncles and aunts going to cache creek. shortly after i guess i was sleeping over at dale's house? random, well it was short notice, but i was down. so two pairs of aunts and uncles have left. marielle had picked me up, too many kids in the car, so i guess we had to fit miko in the trunk. wasn't bad, my brother tried to get this asian guy's attention while on the road, random fact. shortly after arriving at dale's house, marielle and i went to her house to pick up some clothes. there i just asked about anime and comics and stuff. and then she recommended this sick comic, its kind of girly but its pretty good. i read 3 volumes within 2 days. well we had to say goodbye to her cute little doggie and leave it home, because the parentals would be ticked off if they saw some piss and crap on their floor, especially since its carpet. hmm well we were up until 4 o' clock. i was just reading the books she gave me. the next day, i arised at 1, because my brother kept shouting at me that we have to go home. once i got home, i hit the sack. it was my brother's 22nd party. i got up, got ready, and then the my aunt asked me if i can style my cousin's hair. he was rockin' the bowl cut, if you don't know what i meant, think of a mushroom top. erahh, i would think about it. after a talking, we decided the ditch the party for awhile, and then just go to the park. we walked, some rode, and i took some pictures of my cousins while they were just playing basket ball. when leaving, my cousin and i rode the bike downhill. pretty fun, after that it was just karaoke and drunk filipinos. that was pretty much it, i slept at like 5 in the morning because i wanted to finish the third volume of a really good book. thats pretty much it, im gonna try and interrogate people. updates later. oh, and this rid rocks my socks:

how it went.

you have to have had read the previous post, or not its all good. well like i said, i was picked up 1 hour and 42 minutes late, pretty close to my prediction of 2 hours. anyways, i did end up applying at against all odds, zumiez, and vans. not H&M, they're snotty kids there that all look the same, and you've got to be 18. im about 1/4 of the way finishing applications. although, for zumiez they told us to just go online... well after that, we headed over to the foodcourt, and what happens? drama. with a capital D homie. my best friend's ex-boyfriend's best friend is there following us around just spying on us, WTF. so we just acted, if you know what i mean. well after the we decided to watch 'step brothers.' well my opinion would be to not watch it. i would rate it about a 6/10? maybe a little lower. since comedy is pretty tough, i think we've heard all the jokes, its pretty difficult to make someone laugh. and will ferrel, i think thats how to spell it, just pulled his typical card. i'd have to admit i laughed like once, and thats pretty much it. final judgement: don't watch it. after that, more drama, dang. there was a girl that kissed me at a party, and then she already had a boy and stuff. well anyways, she cheated on him with me. she texted my friends i was with. and then my friend pretended to be me, and then in the end i had to actually HAD to talk to her, and whatever, more fishes in the sea. tomorrow is my brother's party, spaghetti and barbecue, BOMB stuffs.

final things: watch everything. well it just goes to show, you don't need all the money, because if these people can survive without it, you can too. you don't need the clothes, or to follow the so called 'flashy' trends dumb people start. if you're willing to spend hundreds of dollars on useless stuff, spend it on something that actually matters. don't take the simplest and biggest things you have for granted, because these people are busting their butts just to get by.

first.

yo. well this is my first post, new to blogging, and actually have been wanting to. im trying to escape the myspace world, its pretty much doing nothing but causing drama, doesn't it always? thats where the source of drama comes from. hmmm, well today im supposed to be applying for a job... rightttt? i was thinking vans, H&M, or zumiez. the enviornment for vans works for me, H&M people are pretty snotty, and zumiez, its just way too quiet. i think im gonna get picked up late. the arranged time was originally 2, its only 1, but they usually pick me up 2-4 hours late, or just don't pick me up at all, and if they don't the don't call until 4 hours later, or even never. so my back up plan would just be to go out with the family i guess. i've been trying to apply and called numerous places, i've been denied by borders and steven & barry's. happy 22nd to my big brother, love, supposed to doing something saturday for the guy. erahhh... oh. and ABDC, i hate the hyped crews. i mean its cool if you like the crew because you do, although i don't like seeing people throwing up the super cr3w signs just because everyone else does. it just drives me koo koo. my question would be out of all the "e's" in super cr3w, why change it into a "3?" its pretty awkward, why not the one in sup3r? i don't like how people cheer supreme soul, just because they're from the bay area, it kind of ticks me off. yeah west coast, but its all talent, no hype. so im going for fanny pak this season, just because they're different, and they can rock it too. updates later.