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Goapele - First Love

My brother dug up my notes from the first week of BOTT while cleaning the house 'cause we were starting to set up for christmas decorations, my brother started throwing it away, and I shout "NO!" I snatched them from the garbage and hugged it for awhile and put it in my drawer inside my closet with my other sentimental valued items. In the drawers i have my first cell phone, my yearbook that i made my sophomore year, the sarsi bottle filled with the juices we bought during the scavenger hunt for mini battle, ugh i was just damn delighted; To some, yeah they'd just be a stack of stapled papers, but throughout my 4 years in high school, i never did anything; i was never superbingly bright enough to get the best grades and outshine others, i was never the athletic one to be mvp or even a bench warmer of any sport what so ever, i was never fortunate enough to buy clothes of my own, all straight up handed down. To this day i still regret not doing any extra curricular activities, i had just started what should've been the beginning of my freshmen year. Especially since i've got a twin brother, comparisons are just around the corner when you're me and with the parentals. I guess thats why you can say i leaped into the garbage and took the notes, it was the first time i felt like i was doing something decent. Besides, i had the biggest crush on one of the core memebers there, I will forever keep that drawer.

Oasis - Wonderwall

I woke up late again, i always do; Ever since summer had ended, I've never really adjusted to the time frame I should've; I still sleep at 3am or maybe even later. I downloaded Inglorious Basterds last night, but I wasn't really getting into it, so Im gonna just try Zombieland, zombie movies attract me easily. Anyways, I had to do my paper work for G By Guess today, the hiring manager forgot I was coming in, but none the less, she dropped what she was doing, and came to assist me. We chatted for a bit, and I felt a tad bit awkward. If I were to see this chick, I'd guess she was in her late 20s. She was actually in her early 30s, she told me; We click. We shared numerous laughs, she told me about her plans this weekend of going to Disneyland, and later today that she was going Ice Skating, and she wouldn't be surprised if she fell on her ass. We both 'laughed out loud,' when one of the employers called on the radio, and said they didn't know what to do, because out on the couch, there was some chick breast feeding her baby out in the public. She read my birth certificate and she was shocked to know that i had a twin brother, I said 'yeah,' and then she asked me if i was who i really was, and i smiled. She asked if I was close with my brother and if i could sense if anything was wrong with him or anything supernatural, and I replied with 'sometimes,' because she has a brother just a year and a few weeks older than she is, and they connect on levels that would be considered supernatural to me. Anyways, i signed a bunch of papers, and I have training next week. Im officially hired, and she hooked it up with a look book filled with rewards and coupons with tons of money off of purchases, guides, manuals, just everything. 40% off with my employee discount. I don't know why Im not as excited as I should be, all of last summer and this summer, I've been trying to get a job. Getting applications from where ever, and just filling it out and turning them in wishing that I'd get a call; Nothing really happened, the ironic thing was that i tried really hard. With this job, it was just a shot in the dark, my friend asked me if I was interested, she sent the applications over the internet, the next day I submitted 'em, she referred me to her manager, no interview no nothing, I wasn't really even expecting anything, and I get called in straight up; I've got a week left of school, so Im gonna work my ass off. The rest of the day was just school, I got dropped off at school, finished my lab super quick, it only took an hour, we even beat the asian girls, they beat everyone, but naw, we beat 'em; they actually had to come to us and copy our answers. the teachers pets said that there wasn't gonna be a quiz tomorrow, hopefully im wrong and they're right, because im not in the mood for quizes, especially since next week is our finals week already; I've got numerous hours for lab to make up in light and sound, chinese quizzes i need to study for, and chemistry in general. After next week, I'll be off for a month and a half, where i can just lay in bed, watch movies, and be warm; I don't know what the fuck Im saying, but I just can't wait; Next semester starts in February, the 1st; thats enough time for me to get back on my feet; and the best thing is that I won't have class every day now, just Monday-Thursday; I know my posts are boring and just about my day, but I'll try and throw a snotty tissue I cried in and start being all dramatic and emotional.

Lykke Li - Possibility

i was kind of diggin' the song; the ironic thing is that lady gaga and beyonce have two songs together; lady gaga featuring beyonce in telephone, and beyonce featuring lady gaga in video phone. i think they're a pretty good mix together, and shockingly both of their songs have to do with phones. lady gaga has some crazy ass die hard fans. don't get me wrong, im a huge fan, but im not obsessed; i became a fan once i heard pokerface and starstruck off of her first album, and at the time i didn't know it was her songs. eh, i just thought she'd be an ordinary pop artist who tries too damn hard. i was right, she tries hard, really hard, which is why i like her, her efforts pay off. appearance wise, im not too fond of her nose, other than that shes a dime. in an interview, she was asked why she dressed so eccentrically, she replied with, " i look the way i look for my fans; not for the attention, but because i never fit in, in places like high school or anything, and i want my fans to know that i know what it feels like, and that its okay to be different. i thank god everyday for my fans, " damn she dope. she can write her own music, own her own look, and haters can just kiss her swag.

haven't blogged in a long time; from the last time i blogged up to now, lots of shit happened. lots of hills or rollercoasters; the ups and downs. the cotillion is finally over, but i wish it wasn't, i miss my girls and the additional characters. this weekend we're supposed to be having a birthday dinner for brooklyn and eda, not sure where or what time, but they kept me posted. i came across brooklyn at school and whacked her with my poster, 'cause i haven't seen her since. i wanted to beat some kids asses in my TD152 class for just being an asshole and passing papers to everyone else, and throwing mine on the floor, i have that class tomorrow, and damn... its gonna go down; i have lots of hours to make up, finish registering for at least 1 more class, finish chinese homework, study for this weekends exam in chemistry, ugh im stressed. i didn't think this would be a venting blog, but i guess it is; im just letting my fingers work right now and not even attempting to hit that backspace button; anyways, on a lighter note, 90% officially hired. i just have to go to the mall, fill out some paper work, and BAM; im hired. i miss everyone already, 2 more weeks and this semester is over, and im gonna be off for a month and a half. i really need it. and just some random crap: we left the hotel party just 'cause it was getting late, and we all wanted to get rest, some stayed, and some left. cassandra, michelle, minh, and i were in a car. we dropped michelle off first, and then headed to my place. cassandra was supposed to go first, but then minh was scared to drive by my house alone going home 'cause i live right next to a cemetery. so cassandra was dropped off last. well on our way to my house, we were going down north park victoria, and we hit a stop light. it was about 2 in the morning, and all of a sudden, all the lights shut off, everything in the whole damn plaza and street lights, and then it all flickered on again for a quick second and then turned back off; we were all damn scared. especially since the wind was blowing superbingly hard that night, tree branches were on the ground, in peoples yards, just everywhere. so when i went out of the car to go to my house, i ran as fast as i could, with minh slowing me down requesting that i return his tux for him. so i popped the trunk got his tux, and just ran straight toward my bed, and hid under my sheets. anyways, on sunday when i went to go and return my tux, it was a coincidence that i ran into KN at the same damn time; talk about luck... we both knew that we saw each other, we just didn't wanna say anything, we just continued to go to formal headquarters to return everything. he was power walking trying to get in front of me, he got through the doors to sears before i did, so i started to run in front of him, and i cut through the aisles and up the escalators before he did, and ran to the receptionist. in my head i was shouting ' fuck yeah! ' but he got run up first since he only had 1 tux, and i was returning minh's. the funny thing was that i went to formal headquarters my junior year for prom. i hated the place, because i had to safety pin some buttons that fell off, so i never came back; the only reason i was back, was 'cause for eda's cotillion everything was uniform and they had choosen formal headquarters. well the receptionist remembered me when i went for the fitting, and said i got taller, i replied with, ' whoa, you remember me...? ' and he just said yeah. well this time, he greeted me, and said after i returned my tux, ' so when are you coming back, when you get married? ' i replied with, ' i don't know, that'll take along time. ' and then he said, ' oh, you're not gonna be going to any school dances? ' i told him, ' well i graduated, if someone asked me, i'd go, but its a less likely chance since im not in high school anymore, ' and then he said, ' bull, you're actually a popular guy, lots of people talk about you here, ' and i said, ' wow im flattered, ' and i walked away. that made me smile although it was creepy in a way; considering the fact that the chick that fitted me for junior prom found and added me on facebook; but yeah, i was truly flatted; and on monday, i was sitting on the school bench waiting for time to pass by, when this white chick comes up to me and says, ' whoa.... cool hair. ' i can tell she wasn't being sarcastic, so i got up and gave her a hug and walked away. just some random things, flattery gets you far in my world. gahgahgahgahgah, my posts are never like this, im going insane.

Lady Gaga Ft. Beyonce - Telephone

recap on this whole damn week; its been filled with ups and downs here and there. this week my parents bought me a car that i've got to share with my brother, Ford Taurus. Got it off of this one guy on Craigslist; a mexican guy selling it for 2.5k; what had happened was that his mom in mexico had passed away, so he sent money to his sister down there, and i guess there was a robbery that took place. so he had to sell his car to get some more money for 'em. the original price was 2.5k, but my parents talked him into 2.2k, saved 300 bucks. still need to get my permit, practice, and lisence, i know im late as hell. friday the 13th took a big strike, i lost my lab partner. shes dropping the class because she doesn't wanna have D on her report card. i was sad, and i told her she made me sad, i wanted her to feel guilty to the point where she would stay in the class, but she didn't. i guess i was super bummed, i had class this morning for the lecture, and it felt hella different not having her presence around. luckily we're still good friends, ever since elementary, and we're still seeing each other 'cause of the cotilion, and we live close anyways. practice was at rose elementary and not the backyard, 'cause the ladies had to rock the heels. after that i walked back to eda's because my brother dropped me off there, he wouldn't know how to get to rose elementary, and if i asked him, he'd be pissed. so i walked back by myself, got a little lost, but eventually found my way. i was waiting in her backyard for about 15 minutes, it was awkward because her older brother came out to take some trash, and i guess he came out and i was just pretending to text. right after he went in, my ride arrived, and off i was to the pacquiao fight. im glad he won, i was anxious the first round, but after the first knock down, i knew it was in the the bag. in the bottom picture, i wanted to take a picture with my favorite cousins, miss them alot, and hardly see them as much. i've got class tomorrow, need to study. staying up, waiting for my brother to get back from his band competition, and its already 12:47am.

Red Hot Chili Peppers - Scar Tissue

today started like any other, getting up last minute for class, throwing on a whole bunch of random clothes, and jetted off. i was a bit anxious because of the whole revenge plot with ethan last week; arrived to class 10 minutes early, and waited in front of the nummi theatre. i stared at the vending machines because they were talking to me, i mean im no psycho, but then letters came up and it said, " sing like no one is listening, dance like no one is watching. " i would've if there weren't other people there. as soon as i took my eyes off the machine, i heard ethan's voice from the corner of the hallway and coming into my direction. i stood my ground and pretended not to give a fuck. luckily i guess he didn't know that when he said all the junk last week to me, that i took his leather jacket and threw it somewhere. anyways i came home, and my parents finally got a new stereo for their car, it was fun cranking up the volume and having a party in the car in the garage with my parents for a good 2 minutes. the highlight of the day was that kellyrose replies to my messages. the reason why my post of her on my blog, and my first message to her was at such a distance between days was because i didn't think she'd actually reply or say something. its kind of surreal to me, i was kind of shocked and starstruck just because i got a MADD crush on her. make sure you guys vote for her, ask me for the link and i'll gladly give it, or you can just clearly see it in the picture above. my hair is short now, and im colder, especially my feet; just made some nutella and strawberry jelly sandwich, deadly combination; it went down in my mouth, thats for sure. its a bummer we didn't have much milk, so i just chugged the rest with my allergy pill and then had some apple juice. ugh, make sure you vote for her every 5 minutes; i want that chick to win.

Alicia Keys - You Don't Know My Name

halloween was alright, nothing great. i overslept and missed a chemistry quiz in the morning, i can't even make it up. i was beating myself up for it, and linh even called me, " Ediben, where the fuck are you?" about an hour into class. didn't break a sweat, then got dropped off at new park mall to get fitted for my tux, everyone was waiting on me, so i hurried my ass. i actually needed to piss badly, i charged into sears and asked the cashier where the bathroom was, he said upstairs and to the right; and going upstairs and to the right was where the bathroom was, and the bathroom was located right next to the damn tux place. i decided to just get fitted first so they'd get off my back. got fitted, payed for my deposit. headed to wingstop with the court and then little caesar's. some funny shit went down, i busted my pen out, and then someone else wrote " *****, you are not allowed to touch/eat, thank you." i guess when the box was opened at eda's no one was laughing, it was more sad. things got emotional after that and the barbecue ended up being a bust and i was the only one who brang stuff to the potluck besides eda, 'cause she lived thur. well halloween, i wanted to stay home and pass candy out, and flaunt my dog's lobster costume off. but my brothers urged me to go with them and bike to dale's house and then we trick or treat around there. i should've just stayed home. the uncle was being a total douche; you know those silent insults, that are aimed towards you, without being physically aimed towards you? yeah, especially since my twin was getting compliments and i wasn't. i don't really give a fuck, my mom told me what to expect, and at first i was a crybaby, but now i've learned to cope and give the cold shoulder to my dad's side of the family. they hate me, but thats old news. it was then me, twin, little brother, dale, dennis, and reggie, we then ventured around the lake on milpitas boulevard, then to gill park. then biked back to dale's then yeah. at gill park some high school freshmen came to us, and said " do you want some free drinks? no seriously " i guess the vending machines would read the coins, and then spit them back out into change. so they gave us like 10 cokes no joke, we robbed that shit. Apprentice and this HBIC, damn, we'll be back saturday ;) anyways, today, this one dude named ethan was being a total bitch. this is why i hate light and sound kids in my class, and i only get along with hardware kids; i was supposed to get the drill and drill it to the top of this staircase thing, i grabbed a handfull of 1 1/2 inch nails, and a ladder. there was a ladder on the other side already, and matt said there needed to be two. so i grabbed the other one, and this punk was already there. he said, " no, don't need that." and i said, " wait, what? i thought we needed two. " he replied with, " thats what i said, we don't need it. " and he did these little hand gestures like, go away. he then asked for 2 inch nails, and i said that i only grabbed 1 1/2 inch nails, and i even offered to go back and get the 2 inch ones. he then got irritated and then just snatched them from my hand, and let a couple drop on me on purpose. he said, " get out of here, onto the other side. " i didn't say anything. he then said, " yeah, the other side, before i slam this door onto your face. " the funny thing was that matt, the instructor, said, " wheres the other ladder? you need two. " so then i gave ethan a mug, and he didn't really give a fuck. so then class was over, and i wasn't planning on staying for lab. i was sitting in the audience chairs, and people were working on the scene stuff, and up on the catwalk, and in the sound room; i noticed that i was sitting next to ethan's stuff. it was a big ass backpack and his leather jacket. my first plan was to get his backpack and hide it somewhere. i then realized that i can't do that without getting noticed, its big, heavy, and theres alot of distance to travel to be unnoticed. so i just waited 'till everyone was looking in a different direction, grabbed his leather jacket, and made a run for it. i then threw it near this elevator thing for disabled people, just 'cause no one in our class was disabled, and no one would go look for it there, so damn. i then walked out of the room smiling, i felt redeemed. after awhile i felt bad, i guess that stuff just happened in the spur of the moment. i bet he knows i did it, just 'cause he saw me sitting next to his shit, but i don't really give a fuck. don't fuck with me ethan.